Okay, so I made these out of Araucania Ranco Multi, in some unidentified colourway that screams "Spring" to me. Like a field of wildflowers, those teeny ones.
I woke up super early on Sunday; we had left the window open and some people were having an argument, loudly, on the street (urban living ftw) at 5am. I could not go back to sleep after that. So I was up, watched some downloaded shows with headphones on so as not to wake up anyone else and finished sock #2. We had M's cousin's wedding that afternoon, so I hurriedly cast on for another sock, just in case we had some downtime in between wedding and reception, and so I could knit in the car. Neither of those things ended up happening. Way later, at the reception, M told me to just go ahead and knit-I think he saw how vry vry bored I was (he doesn't dance, and I didn't know anybody so I wasn't going to go dance by myself- especially not to music I don't like) but I had had most of a bottle of wine, and combined with the red wine headache and the overly loud music with horrible dj sound effects headache; there was no way I could knit little tiny stitches. Also, I didn't want to offend anyone at the table, though I personally find all the surfing and texting people were doing was more offensive than knitting. Not that I actually find it all that offensive, it is an evolving landscape, what is consider rude is ever changing. One on one, if my dinner companion spent most of the time on their phone, I would be insulted. In a big group I really don't think it's so bad. I just think that knitting is definitely more conversation friendly than staring at a smart phone. And it's definitely more of a conversation starter.
I have some weird body dysmorphia. I have this thing where I think I look fucking hot until I see a picture of myself and realize I look fucking horrible. And my day, my week is ruined. Then, I spend all my time in this weird spiral of "Do I really look this bad, do I look this bad all the time? why am I so hideous?" Magnified by how hot and sexy M looked, seeing myself stand next to him in a picture his aunt took, I look like Jabba the hut with him as my slave Leia :(
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